Over a Cup of Coffee & a Cigar

I cannot decipher what do I really feel
Seems like I'm on a total downfall
I fell loneliness, I feel alone
I try to grasp for some strength
But at this time, loneliness totally creeps on me.

I don't know how to move on
Cause I believed that I move with you
I cannot understand this suffering
I suffer a lot and the world doesn't know.

I ask to myself, what's my life for?
What would be its purpose then?
What can I do if its all useless?
I try to reach on but nothing tried to hold on me.

I fear this darkness.
I fear losing my loved ones
I fear this loneliness
I fear death

Why are my efforts worth nothing?
Why do I suffer a lot?
I only have one heart
Yet the only person inside always goes out.

He left me because of my incapabilities.
I always try to seek comfort from him
But what if the only thing that gives you that is gone
Why do I lose the ones I love?
I seek guidance yet all I received are trials.
Tribulations I can no longer get through.

Since this day, my world already stopped
I suffer and cry a lot.
Why do we always hurt the ones we love
Why does it always has to be me.

Now my path is blinded
With darkness and suffering
I ask myself, when will I get that rest
And I think that's until I see my purpose
And to be where I belong
Until then, I'm back again on my lonely fields.
The only thing is, I still cry and suffer more
And here I am again, I, myself, alone.

"It took a cup of coffee, to prove that you don't love me..."

- Cup of Cofee by Garbage