Happy 6th Monthsary bbQ!

Long ago, I always think why I am not able to keep up with my relationships. I felt like I had no choice but to accept the truth that I would always fail. I've tried a lot yet it was still not my best. But now, right at this time, I found one that is very unusual, unique if I could say and somebody that I never thought would I ever deal with. For the past 6 months, I have shared with him all my triumps and failures, and he is always there. I just remember how it was before, when he was so stubborn, he always wanted me to be his own. And now, here we are living together and making our lives work. Eventhough there are times that we have been getting into a undesired situation, I am glad that we are still able to fix it. I know there are times that he is being sad but I would like him to feel that so he can see how happy he can be with small things. By the way, what makes him happy... Sbarro, Mags, Chiquito, watching those make-overs and going to Bay Walk. ^_^ Although we only have limited time, I know we'll last long. I really hope that we would make our dreams come true. For those who still wish to have him, think twice or just stop cause its useless. ;)

Happy 6 month anniversary bbq! We already made it half year and I wish we'd be as always forever.

Its Been A While...

Hey! I almost forgot to update this blog. Good thing that I'm back here and blogging. Ok, what happened to me within the past two months, MANY! First, of course, I'm with my bb and we're smooth sailing. Its good that we have cope with life for the past two months, although there are times that we are getting into bad situations, I still hold onto him and he will always have me forever. He might go back already to his home at the province so definitely, I'm gonna be alone again, but I hope that won't cut our conversation. I would really miss my bb. I had so much fun being with him and I know he is already the one for me and I hope I am as well for him. I hope that he's not already "searching"! hehe. Anyway, I won't talk too much on our relationship cause I don't want it to get broadcasted that much.

Let me just talk about my personal life or something that might be interesting. Lately, we've been having this COSMO mags and we've been vain already on ourselves. LOL! Raz had been more handsome than before (wag lalaki ang ulo!) but for me, I'm not as always. But I really love those articles from Cosmo cause they're really helpful. Aside from cosmo's, we've been into movies! We tend to buy dvd's from almost anywhere, we almost had trouble just buying a dvd! LOL! But its cool having those movies. We also purchased this concert series and man! You should be in our house and watch my bb make his moves. LOL! And aside from all of this, of course, will we pass on a DOTA game?? Of course not! Although I have become stupid playing that game, its still fun playing that game. Oh no! I know my bb would get jealous again because of it. hehe!

Now about our house, well, there's no special occasions happening on it anymore, finally, it has been quiet already! haha! But I still hope my friends can still gather around in the house doing the same stuffs. Anyway, Brett has already migrated to Dubai and I really hope that he would get a great job there. Of course, I'm hoping that he's fine there, of course its not easy if you're not on your own country. But anyways, I'm wishing good luck for him, and if he did, Brett! An LCD TV would do just fine. LOL! Oh, I have news! Nelson just got attached to Eddelyn which was also our high school classmate. GOSH! I wonder what Rovir would have to say about it. LOL! But its good that they are finding the right ones for them. Haaay! We already have lives of our own.

One thing, there will be a grand reunion for all alumni of Signal Village National High School this coming first week of December. Of course, if you're an alumni of that school, have yourself registered ASAP!

Lastly, I don't know what to talk about anymore, rather than having my life and its run arounds but hopefully, everything would go well. I really hope that my bb could go to school. We can make it! ^_^

And I Love Him So...

August 12, at exactly 6:32AM, my bb sent a text message saying that he's already in Manila and he wants me to pick him up. So I came to where we would meet and there, for the second time, I saw my bb again. He looks so gorgeous and somewhat, looks differently too, yeah, he lost some fats, hehe, but still he left some baby fats for me to touch with, hehe ^_^. Then we had breakfast and talked about a lot of things. Its really flattering when he looks at me seriously and telling me how good my nose is, how good my other facial part is, waahh!!! He always gives a lot of comment of what I look like, hehe, he really is soooo flattering. I don't know what my reaction will be. Then after that, we went home to drop by his things and get some sleep. After that, we went to a mall to buy TV, we also watched a movie, and played a computer game. Then at night, we went to Baywalk and strolled along the shoreline. Its great cause we had lots of things that we talked about. My most memorable one is when we ate at Shakey's. ^_^ From that, I knew another info from him, hehehe! ^_^ Then after that, we headed home.

Having him right beside with me makes me really happy cause he's the first one I'd see first thing in the morning. One thing that is funny with him is when he gets crazy, he does things which would really make you speechless and just get yourself in laughter. Especially when he dances in front of me, yay! haha! ^_^ My bb's a very good dancer pala, wild pa! hehe! ^_^ He can be so malikot like a kid but he's really cute. Amazing... He sings a lot of songs pa and super makuwento and malikot! haha! I really am super happy that finally he gets to live with me, kahit a few months lang, but I'll make sure that I'll give him my best. ^_^

My BB's Confirmed!

If I remember clearly, he said this past days ago, "Good news! I'll be there this Saturday and it's already definite!". When I saw it from him, I felt intense excitement where I want to get out of our training room for a while and shout for joy! Well, its already confirmed, he'll be here this Saturday, and we're about to meet, details will be hidden of course kasi baka may magtangkang iba, haha, I know that my bb is in demand! LOL! Anyways, we just chatted a while ago and talked a lot of things with regards to his stay here in Manila. I surely will give him the best of what I can while he's staying here. So once he goes home to (*SECRET*), he'll have happy moments with me.

Waahh!! I'll see him again for the 2nd time (of his visit here) and now this time, there's no more stopping us. I love you bb q! See you this Saturday! ^_^

My BB's Flying Here! ^_^

Today, I am very excited coz my bb raz will fly here in Manila and stay in my house. He might be here until October or if time/sched permits, until December. WoW! I already prepared the house for his arrival, even my sched for Saturday are all wiped out. I really hope everything would sail smoothly between the two of us, but I know it will. Waahhh!!! Hon!! You'll really be dead if you won't make it, remember our deal ok? That's totally serious. I've already bought your shampoo and liquid soap! haha! : D

On the other side, I know we have been dealing with some issues the past few weeks. But I assure you that I will just be for you. You just don't know up to what extent my love is for you, its almost endless. You might have been thinking that I will leave you someday but I assure you it'll never happen. I know there are persons trying to steal you from me. But I trust you that you'll never get decepted with their attempt. As you always say, "hanggang tingin na lang sila". I know there has been issues on my past for you to think about the extent of my love for you, but I understand my mistake, I know before, I was just looking for a companion but now, with the strength of my love for you, I came to accept that the distance between us does not matter anymore. Everyday, with the love you're showing to me, I feel contentment, I feel gratitude. That's why with this feeling, I know there'll be no distance between us. You are always asking why I fell in love with you eventhough there are too many guys out here but the only thing I can say about that is love really moves in mysterious ways, even I don't know and this feeling I have for you is SO STRONG, you can't even imagine, and with this, I will never ever leave you behind. Thanks for your love bbq! I am so happy with you, I know my life now is in the right direction. And now, we'll be together and knowing you, waaahhh!!! I can't explain this feeling, as in I'm so happy right now. Thanks for giving me such happiness and love, I'll do my best to match it up and raise the roof with you. Love you bb q! ^_^

I Need You

This song came from him and said it was a perfect song for me. => Well, its also the same for him.

I Need You

I don't need a lot of things,

I can get by with nothing

Of all the blessings life can bring,

I've always needed something

But i've got all i want

When it comes to loving you

You're my only reason,

You're my only truth

I need you like water

Like breath, like rain

I need you like mercy

From heaven's gate

There's a freedom in your arms

That carries me through

I need you

You're the hope that moves me

*To courage again

You're the love that rescues me

When the cold winds rage

And it's so amazing 'cause that's just how you are

And i can't turn back now 'cause you've brought me too far*

*those are the part of the line that he loves so much* =">

First Song

I just remembered this, it was the first song Raz dedicated to me :)


WHEN YOU TELL ME THAT YOU LOVE ME
I wanna call the stars
Down from the sky
I wanna live a day
That never dies
I wanna change the world
Only for you
All the impossible
I wanna do
I wanna hold you close
Under the rain
I wanna kiss your smile
And feel the pain
I know what's beautiful
Looking at you
In a world of lies
You are the truth
And baby
Everytime you touch me
I become a hero
I'll make you safe
No matter where you are
And bring you
Everything you ask for
Nothing is above me
I'm shining like a candle in the dark
When you tell me that you love me I

wanna make you see
Just what I was
Show you the loneliness
And what it does
You walked into my life
To stop my tears
Everything's easy now I have you here

And baby Everytime you touch me I become a hero
I'll make you safe
No matter where you are
And bring you
Everything you ask for
Nothing is above me
I'm shining like a candle in the dark
When you tell me that you love me

In a world without you I would always hunger
All I need is your love to make me stronger
And baby Everytime you touch me
I become a hero
I'll make you safe
No matter where you are
And bring you
Everything you ask for
Nothing is above me
I'm shining like a candle in the dark
When you tell me that you love me
You love me
When you tell me that you love me

3rd Monthsary with my BB

Once, I thought, why life has been so unfair, for I get to see loneliness all around me. At this point in my life, I can see why I have been so lonely before, for that, I'd see how much happiness I've felt from the things that happened before. Raz, although there are times, we faced loneliness but we faced those not because we have to do so but to see our happiness with each other, for that, we'll realize where to gather our strength and how much we mean to each other. Although you have been so stubborn, you might think why I'm not giving you up and its because with what you do, I feel your importance on me. I feel that you're my only happiness and a source of my inspiration. For that, I'm crazy as well but it has all been because of you. I wish that you understand my shortcomings and incapabilities. However, I'm trying to work on my best so we can have communication at least. I thank you for your patience with it. We're already on our 3rd month and I still remember the first time we met. It means a lot to me. I never thought that I'd get to see you in person but I've been so fortunate to have you. I am still wearing the bracelet you gave me and will never take it off. For that, I feel that you're always with me. Thank you for the love you are giving to me. Thank you for your patience with me. With you, I have all the reasons to live and work hard. I wish that I'd see you once again and hopefully get to know you more. I'll be always here for you. Again thank you for your love and I'll always love you more. Happy monthsary bb q!

Over a Cup of Coffee & a Cigar

I cannot decipher what do I really feel
Seems like I'm on a total downfall
I fell loneliness, I feel alone
I try to grasp for some strength
But at this time, loneliness totally creeps on me.

I don't know how to move on
Cause I believed that I move with you
I cannot understand this suffering
I suffer a lot and the world doesn't know.

I ask to myself, what's my life for?
What would be its purpose then?
What can I do if its all useless?
I try to reach on but nothing tried to hold on me.

I fear this darkness.
I fear losing my loved ones
I fear this loneliness
I fear death

Why are my efforts worth nothing?
Why do I suffer a lot?
I only have one heart
Yet the only person inside always goes out.

He left me because of my incapabilities.
I always try to seek comfort from him
But what if the only thing that gives you that is gone
Why do I lose the ones I love?
I seek guidance yet all I received are trials.
Tribulations I can no longer get through.

Since this day, my world already stopped
I suffer and cry a lot.
Why do we always hurt the ones we love
Why does it always has to be me.

Now my path is blinded
With darkness and suffering
I ask myself, when will I get that rest
And I think that's until I see my purpose
And to be where I belong
Until then, I'm back again on my lonely fields.
The only thing is, I still cry and suffer more
And here I am again, I, myself, alone.

"It took a cup of coffee, to prove that you don't love me..."

- Cup of Cofee by Garbage

End of Week

Days has been too fast here at Dell, its now a friday, end of the week and that means total rest for me... Well, not actually, I've got to do some cleaning up on my house and of course have a chat with my bb, hey! make sure you get up at 9AM or else :-P Well, what does this week have in store for me, oh, I am so blessed today. I don't know but I was almost on a hopeless situation then suddenly, like a miracle, problem solved for me... Whew! Why do I have so many problems nowadays, anyway, I know that I'd get over it sooner.

One thing, I think I am getting crazy, I always think that my bb is with me at our house. hehe. Well, I better do some checking tommorow on my friendster because its becoming stagnant already. Hope I can get something new from my bb. Anyways, we'll chat tommorow morning. Yabyu!

Whatever...

Hi everyone who constantly reads my posts. (I hope somebody is really reading this, I JUST HOPE SOMEBODY CAN LEAVE A COMMENT SO I'D KNOW WHETHER THIS IS STILL BEING READ BY ANYONE).

Well, this day is still a very normal and usual day for me. I got up at 2PM and I was supposed to go to Dell for a physical exam but still being stubborn overcame me. Geez, I forgot to text my bb. Anyways, what can I post here ba.. hmm... I can't think of anything, I think my bb is just what's in my mind. Oh, I always have this line that keeps on rolling out of my head, "How can you hold into something you can never see?" Well, I already saw him and we're still seeing each other on cam but there are times that I am longing for him that's why I always think that he'll be right in front of me sooner. I'm kinda excited cause he said that he's gonna tell me everything I need to know, I just hope that its really true but I am expecting him to do so. Anyways, I really don't want to force him in telling that.

Ok, about my friends, well, I am thinking of Vane cause She's already with her mom-in-law and I just hope that everything's cool with her. OH, I forgot, financial issues! It seems that all of us are into financial issues really, geez! When will I be able to cope with that. I surely have to work hard now. My friends rarely visit my house nowadays, maybe its also because I'm unavailable due to my work at Dell. But I hope we can still get together during weekends, I already missed going to church and I want to go there soon cause there are many things I need to thank about. I always feel that I am still blessed cause even if I'm out of supply, there's still my friends or my family who's there to help me. Also, I'm blessed to be loved by one great person, although, I really don't know his actual name but he said I'm about to get it SOON. OK, I think I have to end this post now, tommorow, I might tackle DOTA. hehe. ^_^

I love you bb q.

Just Blogging

Currently, I'm blogging here at Dell. Good thing that this site is not yet blocked and I hope it remains still. I really wanna make this blogging this done daily coz this is what its really for. OK, so what happened to my day... I actually woke up at 2PM, I'm actually supposed to go for a physical exam here at Dell but I got to play Civilizations 4 and got hooked on it. hehehe... I might do the exam by tommorow afternoon (I hope I won't play that game for the meantime). I don't get to play DOTA today, actually I was thinking of having a chat with my bb but when I checked my wallet, ooppss... gotta go get some replenishments first. :-D Speaking of finance, my issues with that is getting bigger and bigger, I'm always thinking, when am I gonna get my backpay?? T_T I really have to fix a lot within our house coz my bb is already arriving... Oh, I haven't said, he's arriving to our house soon (I just don't know how long is soon for him) but I really hope he can get here asap. I miss my bb so much and I hope that once he arrive here in Manila, everything will go smoothly and of course, his stay would be great.

For my bb, I'm sorry if I'm not able to send you a text message, its just that the persons there are unavailable when I need their phone. Anyway, I am hoping to get another phone asap so we can have communication with each other. I really am excited to see you once again and I hope that you can stay longer than before. I am sorry for the issue we had the last few days but I am thankful that you still entrust me your love and I am sure to get mine devoted to you. Love you bb q.

Hmmm... I surely have to overhaul my house, sometimes my bb is unpredicatable. hehe. Love you!

Vacation

Well, at this moment, I am already working with Dell. My three-week vacation was really great. Although I get to bond with my neighbors here, I lost my cellphone... geezz.. That was the only communication I have with "him". Well, ok, I am writing this letter because I was really about to do this thursday night at Dell but I was not able to, I am so happy sitting here right in front this computer thinking of happy thought I have with "him" but all of a sudden, I saw his blog and then my world suddenly stopped. I know I'm so wrong and stupid but I guess there's nothing I can do about it. I don't know, I am really about to create this blog and write my happy thoughts toward him and then suddenly, it stopped. I guess this is it again, I don't know but I really hope you can forgive me about it and it would be the last thing I'll ever ask. Its so weird because I really wanna fill this post with happy thoughts but suddenly I don't know what to say anymore. Wherever you are, I hope we can talk and unfortunately, I don't have a phone, so I guess I'll just have to wait to get a word from you if ever but I still am hoping. I don't want this to be my last cause I know I should be keeping it.

My Second Monthsary With My BB

I wonder, do we all know where we belong. And if we do, in our hearts, why do we so often do nothing about it. There must be more in this life. A purpose for us all. A place to belong. Here in my heart, I knew the moment I met you, that day, just a few months ago, I knew already where I truly belong.

I hope when you're reading this letter, that I'm sitting there right next to you and you're telling me that I'm stupid enough for writing this and crazy for trying to know you. But how could I not, it's you. All this time, so many days apart, I've missed you. I have never been without you. I've woken up with you every morning and gone to sleep with you every night. You have always been with me. Your courage, your smile, your damn stubborness. There's never been any distance between us. There will never be. I love you bb q. I love you.

DELL!! Here we go!!

I just tendered my resignation from GT Solutions and now, finally, I got a job that would really suit me and that's with Dell. I just hope that I would do better with what I have been with GTS before (I mean when I was on my hyperactive days). Anyway, I feel that the persons there are cool and for now, just wish me all the luck. ^_^

One Year of Trials, Failures, Hardships and Success

Now what do you know, I'm now on my first year of being independent or in simple words, this was the same date a year ago when I left our house. ^_^

Time really shifts so fast. I still remember a year ago, I have nothing but only my clothes and a set of computer. The experience really was hell. You'll gonna sleep on a bed without a matress, I don't even have pillows on it. The scary part is, I DON'T HAVE AN ELECTRIC FAN!! Geez! >_< As in, it was so hot, I have to sleep naked. And then when you wake up and need to go to work, there's no hot water!!! As in you'll have to bathe in cold water! I also get to experience doing the laundry, cleaning the house and most of all, budgeting a very small amount of money. : D

But of all the things that happened to me, what I learned from that is how to stand alone. I know I am so young for this kind of things but when I look back, one year ago, I am so glad, I still am eating good foods, I have a bed to sleep with, and most of all, my computer is still working. ^_^

I remember those people who are always to the rescue. I remember Tito giving his pillow (even if I have to fold it four turns just to snap it in place) and Brett who gave a lot, pero syempre, his cloth iron, the best. Nelson and Niel who always help me when I have to transfer to another house, and Gabby, Yam, Vher (actually all of them) are my financial saviours. I really owe this guys a lot, for anyone not mentioned, you know who you are and you're a big part of my life, thanks!

With all the twists and turns that happened into my life, I am so blessed that my friends are still here to back me up. They saved me in many ways I won't be able to make. Thanks a lot guys. Lastly, I also want to thank those persons who have touched my heart. You gave me inspiration and the will to move on. Now that I have to move another step alone again, I'm bringing along the memories that we had before.

I'm about to finish my movie na and I'll show it to all of you soon.

Arigatou Gozaimas. ^_^

Thoughts On My Mind

"Fear is the path to the dark side.

Fear leads to anger.

Anger leads to hate.

Hate leads to suffering."

Lou's Mega-Birthday Celebration

March 25 and its time to PARTY! Its a double celebration for two birthday celebrators Lou and Berto. Theme of the night... AWESOME!

My house turned into a night club in a just second at syempre, mawawala ba ang all-time favorite, VIDEOKE! Well, thanks nga pala sa mga nagpunta... Vane, Alex, Pens, Tine, Alleh, Paul, Nelson, Tito, Rachel, Brett, Neri, Jayson, Umal, Niel, Afedz, Milbert, Patrick, Jose, Carla and her friend, Pascua, RJ, Mariel, Bern, Rovir, William and Vidal. Nagkasya naman po kami sa bahay although power packed.

At ang drinks, pamatay, habang umiikot yung tagay for piñacolada, meron pang empi na sumisingit. After nun, patayan na with Red Horse beer. LOL! Grabe din pala ang nangyaring biritan sa videoke. Kantahan to the max. At syempre, mawawala ba ang chismisan, kaya ayun, chismis din to the max! Medyo meron mga umeksena pero wag nang ipublish pa!! haha! Panalo din pala yung cake, medyo censored pero for sportsmanship (at para mainggit ung gurls and pagurls) nasa gallery ko sya. Well, naghintay sila na me ipakilala ako as my hubby, pero unfortunately, WALA! LOL! Maybe next year kung abot pa. ^_^

Special thanks goes to:

National Bookstore for the colored papers
Ace Hardware for the fabulous lighting
Kink Cakes for the HUMONGOUS cake

Pics posted at http://lou.cylynxtesting1.com/gallery

Lou, turning 22!

March 21 na naman at eto na naman ako, magcecelebrate ng birthday. Hay, ano ba namang buhay to... 22 years old na ko, mukha pa din akong 18. LOL! Well, at the point when it turned March 21 12AM, nasa rooftop ako ng building namin. Hay, ang sarap magpakamatay! jokes! Masarap magreminisce ng past. All the tragedies and funny things in my life. First time kong mag-birthday being independent... wow! Ang tagal ko na din palang nawala sa bahay. At syempre, ang ultimate wish ko.. SECRET! ^_^ basta... akin na yun, kasi hanggang ngayon, wish pa din sya. LOL. Afternoon, naghanda ako ng konti sa bahay, my own spaghetti! haha! Meron na kong specialty.

Actually, nakakainis ha, kasi ayoko na nga magupdate ng blog na to dahil masyado nang napu-publicize ang buhay ko pero due to overwhelming public request, eto na! LOL!

Song of the Heart and Soul

Because Of You

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because you know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid
Because of you

Another chapter of my life

As time passed by, things have changed. And luckily, somebody came and saved me from misery. Yes, I'm into another relationship again, but this one is quite complicated. Anyway, whatever our case is, what matters is how we share our lives together. I am so happy today. That's all.

I love my bhoo! :-)

General Cleaning at Pinoy Big Sister House

General cleaning time! The part I hate the most. Its a good thing that Carlo was there to help me. The event last night was so much a mess, actually, the house is so much a mess for a week. :-D

After cleaning, we watched a dvd movie. My favorite past time. Then we went to Jayson's house since the boys are there playing basketball. We also picked up Bobo. And of course, I have the digicam with me (my saviour!) We took pictures of course, then after that, we went home, watched another DVD movie (we watched Aeon Flux!! we know the story already :-P) And then at 7PM we went to church. I went to church (now that's something new to me!) and I prayed for somebody, I don't want to get emotional again or I really end up being psychotic. Well most of the visitors here are waiting really for this, how am I and nix going along?? Well, I am not sure. Its hard if you do not know what's going on the other side, so whatever the case is, we'll just have to stand up and face life's harsh reality.

Hey! Milbert and Patrick showed up too... We just loitered outside talking of crazy things (mostly are PC games) and then went home. Sunday's over and another day full of challenges and "shitty" things still to come.

Photos posted at http://lou.cylynxtesting1.com/gallery/bigsishaus

Sabado Night at Pinoy Big Sister House

Its saturday night again and that simply means fun, drinking time again! :-D It really has been a rough week (at least, for me) but things still has to go on. Just have fun and stay alive.




First things first. I just had a new look. Many of them got mad at me because I cut it and the reason is because of depression. (Fact: The first thing a depressed person punishes is their hair.) But you'll get used to it, anyway, I looked 4 years younger. (harharhar!) I am sorry I don't look good now so no one would fall in love with me. :-)


Now back to the main story, after I went to Market Market! to get a haircut and grocery, Gabby and William is already in the house, but they left immediately cause they have personal things to attend to. Then came Nelson, Carlo, Vane , Tito, Rachel, Bobo, Alleh, Niel, Jayson and Brett. We just played poker in the house while drinking beer and listening to goold old music. Just like the old days.... :-)

Photos posted at http://lou.cylynxtesting1.com/gallery/bigsishaus

Sadness, Despair, Loneliness

It has not been so easy but things would have to change from now on. I need to move on but still can't take a step. It seems I really have not moved on, people does. People just come and go. All beginning really has an end, but this time, I am not believing it has an end for it just becomes another beginning. At this point, all I can do, as always, is just to wait, rot and die. But whatever the case is, the bottom line is I believed that tommorow's gonna be better. I let them flew and someday they'll come back but I'll just have to stay and wait for tommorow's always be another tommorow. While we're at this state, loneliness will just have to creep on me. Good luck on my next tommorow or if it will be already what I feared of which is the end.

Farewell NiX

Things moved on so fast between the two of us. The relationship that I thought would last forever has finally met its end. We have to take seperate ways now but I hope, somehow, we'll meet somewhere down the road and bring back what was lost to us. But for now, I'll have to work on moving on. Its really difficult but I really have to face it. I told you NiX that this would really happen and that's the fear I would always have to face. Anyway, things would be changed from now on.

Thank you Nixon Orlina for giving me the best of what I am right now and I will always remember you and will wait for you if destiny really would let us be together again.

New Laws on Big Sister House

Effective today, new house rules will be enforced. Actually, I thought of lowering the restrictions since I am almost breaking the rule... :-D

10 Laws on Big Sister House

1) No SEX (unless it has video coverage)
2) No Money No Entry
3) No Kill Joys
4) No Conyos
5) No slippers/ sandals/ shoes inside the bedroom
6) No Smoking inside the bedroom
7) No house-crashers (buraots)
8) No cleptomaniacs
9) Boring persons not allowed
10) My words will be the LAW

Eviction Night At Pinoy Big Sister House

January 16 and everything is up and running. But not for us, we all came down through an unexpected event. It was Carlo's mother who came and visited us (actually Carlo) wanting his son to go home already. Harhar! The thing is we never got any video nor picture. It was almost like the "Wish Ko Lang" segment (sorry Carlo) but what d hell, he'll go home now. Carlo, you're evicted. :)

Housemates goes to Max's!

Welcome to the Christian World baby Moesha Pablo. And so it came with a matching celebration. So the gang went to Max's Park Square, Makati. We enjoyed the night and the funny thing is, when we got into the pictorial stand, its almost all of them have stood up to take a picture of our group, hehe, unbelievable. Anyway, after the night, we're off to Big Sis House and there, drinking time again. The house again is such a waste but everyone got happy, but maybe not for me. Well, discussions and stories soon to follow. :-P

New Year Celebration at Big Sis House

Well, its 2006, and life keeps on running. 2005 might be harsh for me but there's no stopping our housemates from celebrating year 2006! One mega reunion of my closest friends and friends that hasn't showed up for a long time and new friends as well. Who went there? Let me list it for you:



Nelson Carlo Niel Rovir Leah
Brett Milbert Richelle Frank Bonie
Tito Patrick Rachel William Gabby
Vane Jokarl Umal
Alleh Sefa
Paul Ken to anyone I forgot.. sorry..

(nagkasya naman kami sa bahay...)

Well, of course, the night was for drinks and everyone got drunk.. except me of course.. harhar! Pics posted at http://lou.cylynxtesting1.com/gallery